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Now that I'm 32 weeks pregnant - yes, no DOUBT about that - I keep getting asked 3 questions over and over again by friends, acquaintances and perfect strangers: 1) When are you due? (Answer: In 8 weeks)  2) Do you know if it's a boy or a girl? (Answer: yes, it's a boy.) 3) You must be getting excited?!?! (Answer: Um....I'm not sure if I'd use the word EXCITED.)

The sad truth is that while I am looking forward to meeting this very mobile and active creature I've been housing, I'm also filled with a certain amout of dread. As in, WHAT HAVE WE DONE?  

I'm fully aware and appreciative of the fact that both times so far, we've gotten pregnant so easily. And by 'so easily', I mean LIKE THAT. Each time, I was convinced that it would take a long time to get pregnant and each time, convinced my husband that we better start trying NOW since it might take months, maybe years. Who knew at least one of us is, like, super fertile? And, I'm so grateful for not having any problems conceiving, yet getting pregnant instaneously also leaves little time for mental preparation.

I feel like we've finally got a predictable rhythm in our lives right now- we've got this toddler thing under control, we're sleeping decent amounts, she's sleeping decent amounts, and here we are about to completely turn our worlds upside down. WHAT HAVE WE DONE?

But then I think about the reasons we felt this was a good time in our lives for Number 2. We have family support in the area and that may not be a given later on if we are forced to move by the military. It only gets harder as we get older and less able to deal with sleep deprivation. As siblings, the closer age separation may make them closer. For moving ahead with my career, it makes sense to have my kids clustered close together; the sooner our kids are older, the sooner I'll really be able to focus on career.

I guess you can never be completely prepared for baby upheaval. There's never a perfect time.

For us, there's no turning back now. I know dealing with two children instead of just one will be hard, I just hope we'll survive it without too much psychological trauma. And hopefully, we will still be able to find the joy and humor and beauty of having another child added to our mix.

Please, Lord, grant us an easy baby. Remember how Jolie was? It's only fair.

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